Down my first 50lbs! 🎉

It just might be working after all

Not only am I over 50lbs down, but I’ve also managed to lose just over 31lbs during October. So I’m still on target with my “1lb per day” goal. It does really seem like I need to “lock in” to stay on track, but I’m optimistic moving forward. I wish I could say it is easy. While logistically, things are simple, the effort required to stay on track feels immense. This entire process is incredibly challenging, and very often I get sore and tired enough that I can no long fight off my fears and doubts. I am afraid of failure, and I still very much doubt I can make it to where I need to be.

It really does take everything in me to keep this going. I’ve more or less put my work for the Libre Solutions Network on a massive slowdown for the time being. This isn’t an easy decision, because it means withdrawing the self-satisfaction from working on what I consider meaningful. Very often when I’m in pain my mental attitude resets back to “I’m useless and worthless.

I’m incredibly nervous about Winter, mostly being able to stay active during it. While recent progress has been great, I want to ensure I’m in the best possible situation to “hit the ground running” (figuratively) once springtime begins. I miss biking, but I’m not sure if I’ll be light enough to consider it once the snow melts. Optimistically I’ll be able to get on my bike in the fall.

I’ve entered a weight loss contest

As yet another way of keeping me accountable, I’ve joined the Fatty Contest weekly weigh-ins. I’m entered in as “Healthy2026”. This is because I believe if I stay consistent until then, I should be approaching a reasonable weight sometime in 2026. It’s an ambitious target, and a lot of it has to do with how quickly it takes me to leave the 400+ range. It’s natural for progress to slow as one approaches a healthy weight, so I’m just hoping to do the best I can by the end of 2026.